Well this is torture. I feel so empty, so lost. It's like I'm wandering off in this world alone. Everything doesn't feel right without you. You were my motivation, my motivation to not give up on life and keep moving forward. Honestly things aren't right without you! I need you to be by my side but your not. I live everyday dreading that you're gone and will never come back. I guess that I have to deal with it because its a part of life. My mom is devastated that your gone, that you're not by her side or even giving her advice like you used to when she was younger or even correcting her when you know she did something wrong. Times are tough and i'll accept it but for now I'm learning to accept not having you with me. I remember the good times we had when you were in New York and the whole family went to go visit you, I didn't know we had such a big family until we were in your house and the place was crowded, and that was only half of us. Oh man I remember when we would be watching TV but listening to music at the same time just talking and laughing together all happy, crazy family huh? Yup I know but think about it that's what makes us unique. There's not a single day that goes by when I don't think about you. My mom still has your grey sweater that says your name on the back, I feel like when she has it on she misses you more remembering it was yours. Sometimes I ask myself "why?" Why do the people we love the most and care about the most have to go? But then I remember its reality, things like this are meant to happen someday and we never know when our time is up, we never know what can happen tomorrow, god can really surprise us sometimes but I guess your time was up and it was your time to go. I guess that's why people say "live your life to the fullest because you're living today but tomorrow is never promised" but hey you lived a long 85 years and your birthday is on February 15th, I remember the little things, I remember I was 9 years old when I first met you. I remember my mom always talking about you and me dying to meet you, I would always ask my mom when was I going to meet you and she said soon, but little did I know soon meant tomorrow, I was happy to meet you but when I looked at you and then looked at my mom and looked at my uncle I was like WOAH you guys all look alike. My mom has the same nose as you and so does my uncle and aunt. You were a true blessing to our family and still are, I love you till eternity Alejandro Fortuna..
Love,
Your lovely granddaughter
Karina Castillo <3
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