My life ...

I'm not perfect, I'm just an average girl who's trying to have a good future. Right now I know I'm going through a lot. I let the little things bother me & I know that's bad. I've been having a rough time dealing with things, I tend to keep things bottled up & not let it out. That's why I cry to myself in my room. When I come home I go straight to my room, I isolate myself from my family without even noticing it, it's a bad habit. I'm insecure & a little hard to handle sometimes :-[ there are ups & downs in life & there were points in life where I thought were really bad. But guess what? I got right back up and got my life moving again, I honestly think that people need motivation in their lives to move forward, for example my mom is my motivation. She motivates me to get up early in the morning & get ready for school, she inspires me to do good in school and to keep moving forward. She makes me look at the positives in life & gives me a lot of advice. Whenever I'm down and my mom sees me she first wonders whats wrong with me, then she just looks at me until I notice that shes looking at me and she asks what's wrong and sometimes I just be like "oh nothing" and she can always tell when something is wrong. I'm always trying to hide my feelings and emotion from people because I feel like nobody needs to know my problems because they cant help me... I just keep things to myself and not tell anybody. I know that's bad because you have to let things out but sometimes I feel like nobody wants to listen to what I have to say so why bother even saying anything. some people wanna just know or seem interested to know whats wrong just to have something to talk about. sometimes the people asking you ''whats wrong'' don't even care whats wrong they just wanna be nosy and wanna be in your business and I don't like that so I just maintain to myself... I don't like when people ask me whats wrong because then it hits me, I start feeling more down & that's when I brake down crying. I don't like when people see me crying because I feel like their gonna judge me or be like damn this girl is always crying or this girl is always depressed. I don't like having people talk about me like that. Especially when nobody knows what i'm going through. i hope things get better.