My Exhibition!!

I'm so nervous and excited at the same time for my exhibition. I hope I do good and that I pass. I'm REALLY looking forward to my senior year. I know I have a lot of great things ahead of me this up coming year and that I will continue to do good. As I'm sitting here writing this blog entry the nerves are kicking in and I'm sitting here telling Kiara that I am starting to get nervous. I wasn't nervous when I came here but now I'm nervous. I just feel weird, it's lunch time and I'm sitting here wondering if I should go eat or not. I don't even feel hunger I just feel numb. Well this is like a little reflection on how I'm feeling before my exhibition. I hope I do good :)

Kiara Almonte

This girl has been by my side since day one. I've been knowing Kiara for about 7 years now and our friendship is still going strong. Kiara is 18 years old, she graduated recently from classical high school, and I'm so proud of her. Kiara has been through some struggles but we've got through it together. Kiara knows ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING about me. She's a person that knows how to bring my mood up whenever I'm down and she's a funny person. Even after everything she's been through she still manages to keep a smile on her face. I love Kiara very very much. That's like my big sister. I call her mom "Tia" and her family loves me :) Kiara is a strong strong girl. She shows me what it is to be strong and keep your guards up because in this world you can't trust people. Well I have so much to say but I'm just going to leave it there. I love you Kiara :)

BEST POEM THAT RELATES EXACTLY TO ME...

http://www.bestteenpoems.com/poem/grandpa-im-missing-you

My Brother

Wesley Joel Reyes... My 10 year old brother. This little boy is so smart, he knows a little about everything. My brother is learning a lot in school and I'm very proud of him he's growing up fast. He is in the 5th grade and he's one of the few people in his class that are actually very smart. I love my brother so much with all my heart. I would kill for him, whenever I need him he's there even though he's only 10 he's still my diary. I tell my brother almost everyday. We fight like cat & dog but we still get through the day and we still love each other. There was a day that I thought my brother was going to die on me. When we were at Roger Williams park and my brother was playing with other little kids and I was walking around the park with my mom and my mom's friend, my brother was going on the slide and he slipped and he fell and hit his head on the edge of the stairs and it slid open, the only way I saw him get hurt was because some little kid said "OMG he's bleeding" and I heard my brother crying so I ran towards him and I didn't know what to do so I yelled as loud as I could to my mom and she came running in tears because he was covered in blood, my brother was crying because I was crying and my mom was crying and he was bleeding a lot not because he was in pain because he couldn't feel the horrible accident that happened. Every time I think about it I get goose bumps because the thought of almost loosing my brother that day doesn't seem to suet me. My brother can be annoying sometimes.. Okay maybe most of the time but I still love him and he will always be like my sidekick.   

My feelings?

I swear sometimes I just want to be left alone... Today was not my day. I swear everyday is not my day, well that's not true but yeah anyways... When I have cramps I don't want to talk to anybody and I just want to stay in bed and cry. Unfortunately life doesn't work that way because of school. I really wanted to get some work done but this pain really wasn't letting me and my head hurt so bad I really didn't want anybody to bother me & on top of that my phone stopped working! OH HECK NO, I wasn't having it. Today's just one of those days I didn't wanna be bothered and I guess that's the way it is sometimes. I don't like feeling like this but hey what can I do? I'm so bipolar sometimes I swear it's not normal... Don't really know why I'm writing this but I guess my feelings need to be heard and writing them down helps, SOMETIMES...

What a beautiful sunny day...

I love this weather. It puts me in the greatest mood ever. I don't know why but I feel like my feelings are based on the weather I swear. When it's rainy outside my mood changes and I start feeling down and unhappy, when it's bright and sunny outside I get in a good mood and I just feel better with a lot of energy. Like for example today is a good day because I'm in such a good mood because of the weather. I don't know if that's normal but hey it works with me. I came into school with a smile on my face which is weird because I'm soo over school already. I really want school to end already and I want my summer to start. I know that my mindset right now is in summer mode & it's NO WHERE near school. There's a lot of people today that invited me to the beach instead of going to school and as much as I wanted to go I knew deep down that it wasn't the right choice for me. I still have a lot of work to do for my exhibition because I want to do a good exhibition since it's my last exhibition for my junior year. I know that if I was another girl and didn't care about school I would've gone to the beach with my friends instead of coming to school but as crazy as it sounds I actually care about school. I feel like a good person right now I don't know what it is but I'm just in a really good mood. I hope nobody tries to ruin my day because i'll be upset. Sometimes when I'm in a good mood people just love making me mad and try to ruin my day but I won't let them! I'm on a good path and almost at the finish line, I know I can be successful and I know I can make it far. I have faith in myself and so far I'm proud of myself. I feel good when I get my work done and I'm going to continue doing good because I know Erica is proud of me too :)

April 26th 2013

 These pictures were when I was embellishing the dress for Sashalee's fashion show, right there my mentor told me to try on the dress because we did a few things to the dress so it wont look that plain. it was a tight navy blue dress, short & strapless and what we did was that we added a piece of cloth to the end of the dress to make it like a tail. It took a while trying to figure out what to do on the dress but I got it done. I personally wanted to add the tail on the dress because most of the dresses that girls are using now a days are short in the front and long in the back so that gave me the idea to add the tail so it can be short in the front and long in the back. I like how the dress came out but at first as you can see in the second picture the dress has like a bow in the top middle part and it has three green ribbons two on each side and then one in the middle underneath the silver bow. I tried on the dress like that and then looked at myself in the mirror and just started thinking to myself "How would that dress look on me when I'm on the runway?" then I asked myself "Do I really like the dress the way I designed it?" I had a moment to think about it and then I just thought why not just take the three green ribbons off and just leave the silver bow. That's exactly what I did and I love how it  came out.

So this bottom picture was taken after the fashion show. When everything was all done and when I finally went home. I was so tired after I went home from the fashion show. The show was a success. At first I was so nervous because I never modeled before so that was my first time modeling. I did good. I love how everything came out because in my head how it pictured it to be it was totally different from how it really was. Let's just say it was better than what I thought it was going to be. I thought it was going to be a disaster and that someone was going to fall because I remember hearing that a girl fell at the last fashion show but I had faith that everybody was going to do a good job and that everything was going to come out good. Me and Pircilla were the first ones to model so you know we were nervous. She went first and then it was my turn. Once I was up there I thought to myself "Everything is going to be okay Karina, you are going to do good" and of coarse I was right. Everybody was nervous but the most important thing was that we all did a good job and got it over and done with. I also had lots of fun modeling, I didn't know that modeling was that fun. If someone would have a fashion show I sure would love to be in it again. It was a good experience...