Isabel :)

ISABEL, my beautiful friend. I love how close we got so quick and I love the relationship we have. We tell each other basically everything and we just have that close bond. Every time I'm not in school she blows up my phone asking why I'm not in school. Its good to have friends like this that support you and have your back in anything you do. Good and positive friends will lead you in a good direction and will want nothing but the best for you and that's exactly what I need and exactly what I found in her. I just love having her around because she's always smiling and making people laugh and when she's not smiling is when I know something really bad happened and that's rare. People like her grow up to be the kind of people that others want around but can barely find especially now a days that there's a lot of fake people around that you never know who your real friends are or what people can be saying behind your back. I really appreciate people like her in my life and when I'm down she's always the one to lift me up.

RIP OMAR

This picture makes me so sad, looking at this picture just gives me goose bumps. I miss Omar so much and to know that he won't be coming back just hurts even more. Omar was a strong independent young man who was just starting his future and his goals that he wanted to accomplish, September 8th 2012 is when it all changed. I still can't believe that he's gone but one thing for sure is that he will never be forgotten and he will always be missed. I can't bare the fact that he was gone so young and he didn't even get to hit 19, there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him just like my grandfather. A beautiful soul. I remember having gym with him and his class and we were outside of gym and I took this picture of him and he always told me to delete it because it was an off guard picture but I never listened to him. May his soul rest in peace.

This poem explains it all:

We cannot communicate with those who have passed to the other side, never the less their presence remains as long as they are in our hearts.

Memories

© Louise Bailey

I feel a warmth around me
like your presence is so near, And I close my eyes to visualize your face when you were here, I endure the times we spent together and they are locked inside my heart, For as long as I have those memories we will never be apart,
Even though we cannot speak no more my voice is always there, Because every night before I sleep I have you in my prayer.

Josue Rolon Flores

This right here is my happiness, it all started October 9th, 2013 when me and Josue met, happiest day of my life. Here I was about to just give up, I was so sick and tired of getting hurt and people leading me on and saying one thing and doing another. I was sick of it all honestly I wanted it to all stop I wanted to put an end to it, but then came along Josue. We started talking and things were good and I was really starting to like this kid. 1 month goes by, then 2 months then 3 and things are just going great and we're getting serious now were almost making 5 months on March 9th and honestly I hope nothing comes in between us. He just simply makes me happy and I wouldn't anything to change. I've never met a person like him, he's so unique and I love every little thing about him, yes we have arguments and disagreements but I mean what couple doesn't? we get through it and at the end of the day were still going strong and as I've told him many times I will continue to hold it down for him as long as he allows me to. I love his family, they're like a second family to me and we get along great. I love how things are between us and I hope things go far with him because I've never had a real relationship like I have with him. I'm looking forward to seeing how far we get in life together and where life takes us both. He's a smart unique amazing person and I believe I am lucky to have him, the fact that we are going to have 5 months is just amazing because I wasn't expecting us to go far but I'm really happy we've gotten this far. He is my joy and also my support system and it's always good to have a person like that by your side because you know they're there for you and you can trust them with anything. Growing love for somebody is hard if you've been hurt so many times because sometimes it's hard to let go of the past and what you've been through but with him it’s so different, with him I'm learning to let go of the bad things and focus on the better things in life and just keep a positive mind and trust that everything will be okay. I appreciate having him in my life and just every little things he does for me is what counts, I can actually say that I am growing love for him without fear. What I do fear is losing him, but as long as the communication, honesty, trust and love is there I know I have nothing to worry about. <3

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This poem reflects exactly what I feel, but will never tell my family or friends. It shows how I hide behind my mask, which is slowly coming apart. It says how I don't tell them because I can deal with it in my own way, and they don't need to worry.

I'm Hiding- Deep Inside

© Rachel Zalakos

Can no one see this smile I'm faking,
See how, inside, I'm constantly shaking?
These people all claim they know me well,
Yet no one can see through my crumbling shell?

"I'm fine", I whisper, my sadness unknown,
They leave me to deal with this anguish alone.
I've hidden behind this wall most of my life,
I've managed so far, I've dealt with my strife.

Watching as, slowly, my blood leaks away,
It helps to keep life's true horrors at bay.
I pull down my sleeve to cover my hurt,
For approaching footsteps, I'm on the alert.

I guess my pretense is just all too real,
No one has to know of the pain that I feel.
The real me inside, where no one can see,
I can fool everyone else, why can't I fool me?

This poem I found on Google explains PERFECTLY how my life is sometimes, so much pain inside of me but yet nobody ever knows.

My Twin

Yordiana Rodriguez, this girl is like my twin and shes everything I've ever wanted in a cousin almost like a sister. We've been attached to the hips ever since we were little, actually ever since we were born. Things are a little different now because of the distance, she lives in New York and I live here in Rhode Island so it's kind of harder to communicate with her knowing she plays sports and she's busy doing alot of things for school. I barely talk to her but when I do we get very emotional because our family is falling apart, my mom is her moms sister and they barely talk but when we used to live in New York we were much closer and we used to do everything together now everything is just different, especially ever since my grandfather passed away on November 21st 2012 that was the down fall of our family. Me and my cousin are trying to put our family back together and trying to make things how they used to be but we'll see how that actually works out to be. I hope to have our family the way things used to be because everything was so good and we were so close. I don't wanna grow up knowing that my family is falling apart, it's bad enough that I have no communication with my dad's side of the family now my mom's side? I won't let it happen. We have a beautiful big family and wonderful things coming our way so we can't let distance ruin our relationship or what we have.