R.I.P alejandro fortuna

November 21st 2012 was the day my life changed. My grandfather meant the world to me. It’s hard accepting the fact that he’s out of my life forever. One thing I do know is that he will forever be in my heart. I love the way our relationship was, I would tell him everything. It was really hard seeing him in that casket and seeing him just laying there and not moving or saying a word. The whole time I was at the funeral I was just looking at him and thinking to myself, ''why did this have to happen to him?'' I was really depressed and I didn't know what to do. He meant a lot to me so for someone so close to me to been taken from my life like that hurts. Everybody got to say their last word in the hospital before he died.He was laying in bed with tubes inside of him to help him breathe because he couldn't breathe himself. If the doctors disconnected the tubes he would die, so they let him stay on the tubes until he stops breathing himself. We were at the hospital and we went to go see him and he couldn't talk or open his eyes because of the medicine that he was on. The only thing that was actually working well was his brain, you could talk to him but he couldn't respond. The scary part is watching the machine that told us his heart rate and his pulse because at any moment the line can go straight like __________ and if it does that it means that his heart stopped and he died. that was scary just looking at it at every moment hoping it doesn't stop...we went to new York November 20th at 9:00 pm and we stayed there November 21st at 2:20 am and we were going to leave, we said goodbye and gave him a kiss and cried our last tears before we left. then we went downstairs to go leave but my mom had to take my aunt and uncles to their houses which were in the Bronx and me, my brother, my aunt and my other uncle stayed downstairs in the lobby waiting for my mom to come back so we can go get some sleep and hopefully wake up to my grandfather still alive. We waited for like 30 min and then my mom came and we hopped in the car and we left. not even like 5 min after they called y uncle and told him that my grandfather died and my uncle called me telling me and at first I didn't believe him but then I put the phone on my cousin and we found out that he was telling the truth so we had to do a U turn and go back to the hospital and I was so nervous and scared and my legs were shaking suddenly a big weird feeling came over me and I was really worried. We rushed to the hospital and we were like a block away, then I got out of the car along with my brother and my uncle and aunt and my aunt was crying so much and she couldn't breathe while my mom and cousin were looking for parking. when we went up stairs and rushed to the room the nurse told us to wait outside the room because they were cleaning him up so when she told me that I still had hope that he was still alive until the doctor told us "I'm so sorry for your loss" I still didn't believe it, then my mom and cousin came rushing and my mom was crying and my mom asked the doctor if we can see him and the doctor said yeah and he asked the nurse if they're done cleaning him and they said yeah and they opened the curtain and that's when my heart completely dropped and I knew that they weren't lying. I started BALLING in tears and we all started crying. it was hard for all of us knowing he was dead for sure and we knew it was real because he was wrapped up in a bag with his arms and legs crossed :( it was such a bad feeling that something so close to me left instantly. it was crazy because my aunt said that he was waiting for my mom to come and see him and say bye for him to die because the 2 brothers and the 1 sister lived in new York and my mom is the only one that lived like 3 hours away so he was only waiting for her to hear her voice and make sure he had all his daughters and sons there with him. One last thing I believe is that he waited for all of us to leave so that he can die in peace now that everybody said bye. He heard our last voices and our last goodbyes. I believe everything my aunt said because it’s true. I just didn't want to see my grandfather die in the hospital but at least we all know that he is not suffering anymore and that he is resting in peace in heaven with god and the other little angels. He is now our angel and I know he is looking down at us because he was a very good person and a strong man. It’s now hard to forget his presence and what he meant to us but we are happy that he’s not suffering anymore. It was hard in the burial when we had to rent a bus for all of us and we had to go all the way to New Jersey to bury him. When we got there they had to do a little bit of paper work and then we were ready to bury him. It was a bad day, after we buried him we had to come back to Rhode Island. :( FOREVER IN MY HEART ALEJANDRO FORTUNA <3

My grandfather, he's so special to me :( I hate seeing him suffer and seeing him in pain with a frown on his face because I know that's not like him :/ I just hope to see him healthy when I go to New York tomorrow because it'll brake my heart if he passes away now, I feel like he's not ready to leave is , not yet. My mom is his little girl and to see her crying and stressing over the fact that he's dying makes me sad, my family has always been happy. Him being in the hospital has affected is all in many ways and we don't want him to be in the hospital anymore I want him to be nice and healthy and go home where he's supposed to be, everybody wants to see him happy not sad I just hope for the best and hope he gets better soon. I love you abuelo !

my grandfather

Dear Abuelo,

I miss you soo much, I cant imagine how hard it is for you being alone in New York in a home where there's people you barely know. Me and mami have been going crazy ever since we found out you were in the hospital because you have Pneumonia and you couldn't breathe or talk, I really hope your doing better now because I cant afford to loose you now especially when I'm not there with you, I just want you to know that you mean the world to me and I know I would feel guilty if you passed away and I'm not there. I love you a lot grandpa, I know you've always been there for me, I love talking with you because you always know the right things to say at the right times, hopefully things will get better with you and you will be nice and healthy soon, I cant stand the fact that you cant talk or even recognize your own family because of the medications they have you on, it broke my heart when I found out that mami had to make a life or death decision for you because we all know that your not ready to leave us yet. Well this is all I have to say just know I will always have you in my heart and we love you dearly <3 

   Hello my name is Karina Castillo <3 I’m a very outgoing person, I love having fun. I am 16 years old and my birthday’s on July 2nd. My favorite color is pink, I am a very friendly person and very respectful but if you disrespect me or my family or my friends that’s when I’m another whole different person. I live with my mom and my brother, my mom’s name is Maria and my brother’s name is Wesley. I love my best friend Catherine Pineda. I love this girl soo much; shes the one I go to whenever I need some advice or whenever I’m feeling down, she is an energy boost. I tend to have a little attitude this year but I guess it’s because you can’t really give people your all because they take advantage and that’s not how things work with me. I love listening to music, MUSIC IS MY LIFE. I think that if music was never made I would never be who I am right now. Music makes people and also music helps me get my mind off things because when I’m listening to music I block everybody out. I’m Dominican I was born in Manhattan New York. I’m full blooded Dominican, I speak perfect Spanish. When I grow up I want to be a pediatrician. Be a very successful person in life. I know I am going to make it in the future because I have faith in myself. 

My mom :)

My mother, oh man I can write a wholeeee book about my mom. She is a very important person in my life; I love her with everything I got. My mom is a very loving, strong person. She is like a father to me, that women has been thru sooooo much with me and my brother that no other mother would take as much as my mom… me and my mom have been thru our ups and downs but at the end of the day she’s still my best friend. I told my mom that I’ll always be there for her, like if there’s anything that she needs to get out of her chest or feeling down or something she can tell me anything. I don’t want our relationship to just be like a mother and a daughter relationship. I want it to be like we are best friends and we can do everything together and talk about anything. I feel comfortable around my mom, and I would die if something happens to her. She’s my world. I would do anything see my mom happy :) i look up to my mom because of the simple fact that shes a strong women, i know my mom has been thru a lot & shes still standing and getting thru things. i appreciate my mom in everything because shes never left my side even thru the rough times she still stood by my side. my mom is a wonderful women. i appreciate the little things in life because i know kids who don't have a mom or that support system on their side. me & my mom have been thru a lot this past year, we've argued so much & its gotten to a point where i would lock myself in my room for HOURS, but now we have a better relationship. my mom is my best friend, i can tell her anything & not feel judged. i remember times where i would think my mom didn't love me anymore because of the arguments we had & there were times where i would just cry in my room because of holding things about the way i felt about her. but all the bad things are over now because we fixed all our problems & let everything out. now we understand each other and get along great. my mom is my world and i love her..

my grandmother

A person who has had a great effect on my life is my grandma. My grandma means the absolute world to me. That women is amazing, her name is Altagracia Nieve Reyes. She is so beautiful, I love my grandma so so soooo much. My grandma has been through a lot over the years from when my mom was born till now. My grandma was a strong woman. She still is. She did a very good job raising my mom because my mom is just like her. My grandma always has a smile on her face so when she’s not smiling or making jokes then that’s when you know something bad happened. My grandma is not the type of person to hold grudges on people. She is a sweetheart and she will always go out of her way to help someone. She will stay with nothing and rather give stuff to people or help others. She’s getting old  I don’t want her to ever leave my side because I know I won’t be ready for that day.

Marilyn Monroe

Marilyn Monroe ...... My idol! she's an inspirational and her quotes inspire me a lot. " She's so B E A U T I F U L :) she got married when she was 16 to 21 year old James to avoid going to the orphanage and divorced him when she was 20. Marilyn Monroe was born as Norma Jeane Mortenson on the 1st of June 1926 in the charity ward at the Los Angeles County Hospital. Despite spending much of her early life in various foster homes Marilyn went on to become a major actress, singer and sex symbol throughout the 1950′s and early 1960′s.